1-6-17

Hello my love,

Today we have decided which breeder we are going to get our puppy from and when you get home tonight, we are going to put down the deposit!!!! In fact, by the time you read this, we will have a little munchkin running around the house!!! AHHH THATS SO EXCITING!!!!

We are probably gonna go to a pet store tonight and start gathering up supplies, like a bed and maybe some toys. I can't even tell you how excited I am to get started on this adventure with you!! When you get home, you'll probably find me taking notes on the puppy book you got me and possibly crying in excitement.

We should be able to pick up Puppy on February 24th! I have already requested the time off so we can spend her first weekend here with the two of us and we can make sure she is safe and can get comfortable.

When I first threw down the "if I move in with you, we're going to get a puppy" proposition, I was a little convinced that I would never be moving in with you. I think that the timing is so good for getting her. We can train her at home and get her used to obeying us and then take her out into the world and meet people before its time to go out to dog parks and make new puppy friends!

I have so many ideas to share with you about getting her socialized! We can have Hurley over with my mom and Dylan and my Auntie Linda can come bring Beau (who is a rather large dog) over to meet her so she doesn't get scared by bigger puppies. We can have Matt and Rosa bring Rufus over maybe? (also maybe not because I'm not trying to clean that drool up) 

I hope that you're as excited as I am baby. I hope this means as much to you as it does to me. This, in my eyes is making our family. I know that sounds super cheesey and lame, but you are my family and I think that having a puppy together that we can raise and love and spoil (but not too much, I promise) would be so so wonderful for us. It will be challenging at times, I won't lie, but I think it will make us so much stronger as a couple and as individuals.

You are my whole world, Kevin. I'm so excited that I get to fall asleep in your arms every night and wake up to your morning hair and give you a sleepy kiss goodbye every morning.


ALSO! (I feel like its kind of been a big day)
You talked to Fish today and WE are going to his wedding! I'm really so excited to meet your college friends! I hope they like me!

You are my best friend and I'm so lucky that I get to kiss you.


Your's
M

11-7-16

Hello my love.

Things have been absolutely insane lately. So let's do a run down shall we?

Frank and Teresa's wedding!
We went to Rochester and it was so much fun! You took me to Jay's Diner, Mighty Taco. You gave me a tour of RIT including The Answer. (I also referred to college students as "kids" for the first time in my life.) We got some pints at MacGregors and it was so wonderful to be able to see all of the places your college adventures happened. It meant so much to see you light up and tell me story after story about random bars, streets and happenings.

I am so lucky to be able to have you now Kevin. I am constantly grateful for you. I am grateful for your experiences, for where you have been, for who you have been with before me, and how different our paths to each other have been. Everything you've done and been through before me has created the most wonderful, caring man I've ever known. That path brought you to me and I will never be able to thank the universe enough for that,

I spent a bunch of quality time with Teresa while you and Frank went to Toronto. I'm quite lucky to have her as an Outlaw.

The wedding went so well. We danced our faces off and I'm very much looking forward to seeing the pictures of us from it. We got to spend so much time with your nieces and your family. It was the first time that I really felt like your family was my family.

1-4-17

Hello my love,

You had to go back to work yesterday and you were less than pleased about it, but you didn't have as many emails as you expected!

You are just getting over a sinus-y thing, so naturally I am currently getting it. You always try so hard to get me to not kiss your face when you're sickly but I can't go too long without Bub kisses.

Today is a little hard for me. It might be because I am getting sickly, it could be because I'm on my period, it could be a combination of both? I feel like I'm in such a lull lately, I feel like I only feel like me when I am with you. I don't know if that makes sense. I feel like I'm the me-est me when I'm with you.

You had a meeting all day long today. You are so wonderful and patient. Now after you have had a long day at work and now you are on your way to get food for us. You are the most wonderful man on the planet baby. I have no idea how I got so fucking lucky to have found you. You have no idea how much you mean to me, how much you do for me. I've never met anyone like you Kevin. You have shown me love in so many ways. You show me love in every single thing you do, every single day. I could never thank you enough for that. I constantly think what I ever fucking did to become so lucky.

Thank you for making me believe in love again. Thank you for giving me hope. Thank you for everything you do for me, from the forehead kisses, to the massages, to grabbing dinner for us after a long day of work.

I love you so much baby,

Your's always
M

1-2-17

Hello my love,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! We rang in the new year with Dylan and Kaitlin! We played board games and had delicious mussels and Buffalo wings!

I know I tell you all the time, but I genuinely can't tell you enough how much it means that you and my brothers get along so so well. Having Dylan have a safe is so important right now and I'm so happy that it's our home.

I always get so nostalgic when it's the new year. I can't stop thinking about the first time I was in your apartment in the mills cuddling up on Ashwins couch watching a movie you knew I'd really like. I remember my heart beating a mile a minute every time you squeezed me or pulled me in closer. I remember how embarrassed I was coughing up a lung every 2 minutes.

I remember you leaning in for our very first kiss. I remember the swarm of butterflies and the immense feeling of anticipation. The most wonderful part is that when one of us gets home, I still feel that, nearly two years after the very first kiss. Every kiss gets me tingly and butterflies explode in my tummy.

I remember trying to flirt with you but having no game. Never knowing then what you would mean to me now.

I remember telling my friends about you for the first time. Giggling over how cute is thought you were (and still Giggling about how cute you are now).

We've already come so far together baby. I'm constantly amazed by the growth that you've had in the past year and a half. How much better you are at expressing yourself, how much easier it is for you to speak on your emotions, how well you express sexually desires. I'm so proud of you baby.

I love you so much Kevin.

2016 was such a shitty year, but I got through and read all these entries about our adventures and remember that even in the shittiest year, there was still sunshine because you were by my side fighting for us and our happiness. Laughing and loving our way through this dark, oftentimes scary world...

I love you more than anything,
Your's
M