We have been so crazy town lately!!
We have officially hit the year and a half mark! Thank you for making the past year and a half of my life the happiest, most exciting of my entire life.
We rented a Slingshot last weekend, and it was absolutely crazy fun! We went way up north, all the way to Wolfeboro! We even got to go to that little brewery that you really really liked! It started pouring on the second day we had it, and even that was incredibly fun. I loved it and we had a whole lot of fun!
This past weekend, we went to the Topsfield Fair in Mass. We ate tons of fair food, you won me a cow, and we got our first caricature done together! Also, I got licked by a cow and it was awesome.
We're getting ready to go to Rochester for Frank and Teresa's wedding. You don't seem very excited for this. If anything, it seems like you don't want to go at all... I don't know how to get you excited... I feel like I'm to blame for this..
I'm so sorry that I'm so crazy about weddings right now, its hard to explain out loud, but I feel like I'm surrounded by engagements and weddings and every week there are more and more. I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I know we aren't ready but I just feel this immense pressure to be at that point. Its like because we aren't there, its like we're being left behind, or we're falling behind from where we're supposed to be...
You make me so happy, you make me believe in a future for the first time in a really really long time. You make me believe in forever. You make me believe that I can be with some one for keeps. You make me believe in so many things..
I love you so much Kevin. You are my very best friend and I know that someday we will be planning a really great party to celebrate us and how much we love each other. We'll let everyone know that we pick each other for keeps and that we don't want to kiss anybody else. I know that we will get there. I know that we will try 75 different cakes and look at pretty places to have the party and narrowing down the people we invite. I know that we will get there.. its just hard for me sometimes.
So essentially, I'm sorry if I'm the reason you aren't excited for your brother's wedding as much as you should be, I'm sorry if I'm stressing you out about this. I don't mean to, I promise.
I think I'm going to try to include more pictures in this thing from now on, I think you'd like that.
Your's,
M
